Amazing...

I never thought I'd ever think the words "I miss Drumheller" would ever come out of my mouth. But they have. The Jr. Band at Glenmore went up this weekend...mostly to hang out. We did the service today and did like...an hour at the nursing home yesterday. It was amazing. I think what I liked most about it was...being free...from everything. Stress and everything. Being able to have real fun...and not worry about it. Be able to smile and not worry if I should or shouldnt be smiling because this persons going through this, and that persons going through that. I was finally able to be happy for...and day and a half. Dont get me wrong...I have an amazing life, and family and everything...and I wouldnt trade what I have...but lately I've been having trouble being truly happy...and I dont know why. I even forgot about failing my license...till I was almost home. But gosh...it was amazing. We stayed in the Ramada in which is actually set up like a house...kind of. It looks like a hotel...but you walk in...and theres a room thats kinda like a coffee shop..and everythings free and you can just go sit on the couches with your friends like you would at home and turn on the TV. We watched the Flames game down there last night...it was awesome. And we went swimming...and It was soooo fun. We laughed so much, it was great. I dont think I've had that much fun straigh in that "long" period of time since youth councels.

Court

second post of today!

Jeeze...I think I really am a blog-atic (if that makes sense) haha...I was at Amandas birthday and there was a balloon guy there and we were trying to figure out how to say his name when he told us it was Balloonatic...like Lunatic but...balloon...k so maybe not so funny....same with the blog-atic...maybe just funnier in my head. Gosh...sorry this is really weird. Never post when your really tired. K...there actually is a point to this post. I took my drivers test today....and I totally FAILED! Thats right...I fail at life, lol. KIDDING! But I was soooo upset....I had to go right to church to do childcare and I cried like...all the way to church and then I got to church and couldnt go downstairs for a while till I stopped crying. It sucked. Then I started hanging out with the kids and it was amazing. I nearly forgot about the drivers test. Its funny how Kids, in there innocents, can make you forget about everything thats happened...even for a second. That split second when they run up to you and give you a hug...or the look at you and laugh and run away waiting for you to chase them. There were like...7 kids there....it was a fairly small group. We got a new TV donated and its really nice. But its really loud...even when the Volumes turned down quite a bit...so it was hard to deal with 7 kids and a TV haha...it kinda got annoying, but the youth pastor was really into Veggietales, God rocks, and The Doughnut man...so we couldnt turn the TV off, haha. Well....that was my day. I got pictures from my phone FINALLY on my computer today. They wouldnt send for like..a month. So here are some of the pics. OOO...
this out!!!http://mypictures.bell.ca/guest/view/message.do?lsdb=7&invite=nE8r4XJ32YzMTaya77dU&subretailerid=BELLM&shareName=MMS&retailerid=BELLM

Its me playing the drums horribly. Sorry about the weird sound...it was from my cell phone...so the sound isnt great.

PIC order

-me playing the drums, or attempting.
-Shane D
-Mom and Sam
-the most amazing book title ever! I saw the book in indigo and took a picture of it. Maybe not the best Christian representation, but funny nonetheless.

Am I still Mad??

The radio station I listen to always talks about the walk for the kids help phone or whatever it is. Everytime I hear the advertisment...I get sooo mad. I do know some people dont know the background to this post....I'll explain better later but right now Im kind of on the way out the door to school. But yeah...I get really mad and everytime it comes on I get the urge to scream...or just go up to someone (someone I know) and tell them I can NEVER support the help phone. Maybe last year I could have, but not anymore.

Court

Dear me

haha...kids are funny. I know I've posted about kids quite a bit...but oh my gosh...I have a couple really good stories.

first story - Micheal (the youth pastor) was up in the nursery with Jackie and I while we were baby-sitting 3 kids. One was about 5 months, 2 were 4...ish. And Jackie said 2 the boys (the oldests)..."Guys guess whos coming" and micheal yells JESUS!!! Really loud...the baby was all happy and stuff then he yelled and her face changed so fast there was barely time to react...and she burst out into tears. So now...David...her older brother....when ever you say "david, guess whos coming?" Or just plain "whos coming?" he'll be like..."UGGGGHHHH Jesus" its really funny because he seems so unenthusiastic.

Second story - I help out with this Jr. Youth group at my church...and its mostly Asian kids, they're the best kids ever. Anyways...last night I told this kid, Frank, that if he ate a Jelly Belly he'd fly...so he took one and I picked him up and ran him around the kitchen....and he laughed so hard....then told me that he wasnt actually flying, but it was fun anyways...I love him, he's the best kid ever. Anyways...I better go.

Court

AGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

1 Timothy 4:12 says "Let no one dispise you for your youth, but set an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in Purity" - English Standard Version


If Its said in the bible that youth aren't supposed to be looked down upon, why are we? And how do we stop it? See...It may be stupid, but its something thats been bothering me all year....

1. They take Winter Weekend away from us...and are replacing it with "a weekend in prayer" at Forward...now tell me....(I know most people are older than I am...but try and look back to when you were young and going to camp...and if you never went to camp...well...try and imagine.) For you....was Camp 100% to spend a week or weekend with God? Or was it more to see your friends, and as much as God helped with everything (or didnt in some situations)...Camp makes everything easier. I know that when Im having a hard time...I have trouble finding time to ask God for help when Im in Calgary, but when Im at camp...theres nothing distracting me...theres all Gods creations and everything, but theres also my friends.

2. They get all our hopes up telling us that we're having DYB at camp...but ever since they've told us that...they've cancelled it...every time!! Its not fair!!

3. They're now talking about maybe cancelling Music camp because there isnt enough accomodation, and as much as I may not be a camper at music camp....I still would hate to see music camp cancelled....because....everyone looks forward to Music camp. And Im sure that if they had the option to sleep in a tent...or to have music camp cancelled...they'd sleep in a tent.

I just wish they'd stop making us feel worthless. Stop making youth feel like we're unimportant. Or at least not as important as 95% of the worlds population.

Im really sorry if this post seems weird or anything....I've been in tears for the last half hour...and my brain isnt working properly. Just...can someone tell me if we're out of line in thinking that we have no worth, because no one is showing us any kind of care or anything. Because no one ever consults about the decisions for us? I personally dont think its right...but maybe Im wrong...maybe when people make decisions for me...I should be happy to go along with it....no matter what it is.

Boys Boys everywhere you go!!

So....my sister asked a really hot guy out the other day....she didnt even know his name when she did, BUT...they did talk a bit and he knew her name. And today....I may or may not be going to see a boy at sobeys (where he works) cause he said it gets really lonely...so I told him I'd go see him.

So this post is mainly because...Im bored...and I wanted to post.

My hands hurt...we're doing wire sculptures in art and I keep accidentally stabbing my hands, but by the time I realize it...the bloods all dry.

My whole computer got wiped, so I lost like....100 pictures and 18 hours worth of music.

JENN! Im still waiting to hear about a baby! I hope it comes soon!!!!

4 20 was good...I guess...I sure didnt do anything about it (meaning I didnt smoke Pot, because...well...I dont wanna die a slow death)

Its snowing, and I hate it! I wish I was at camp! Any weathers good at camp.

I've gained back 2 hours of music back. YAY

Im gonna go...because this post is really boring, sorry!

ttyl

why do they always do this to us......GOSH

yeah....so Im pretty frustrated. I get an email like...monday...ish say..."we're really excited to see you at DYB on the weekend, please provide your own transportation" DYB is Band practise, for everyone who doesnt know...and then today...I get home from school...and got an email from a girl from my church, saying "are you going to be in my car on the way to camp" so i emailed her back...because we had already made all these arrangments to go up...my parents and sister were excited to have a hot dog roast on friday night...and blah blah blah....and then I go for a walk...I get home, check my email only to find out....."Sorry to announce, DYB is yet again cancelled" which wouldnt be that bad...if 3 out of the 4 practises this year hadn't been cancelled, but they were. DYB is more than a band to me. DYB....is a weekend away....a time to see people.

4 20

I don't mean if 4 20 means anything to anyone, it didnt mean anything to me until like...monday, when everyone was complaining that we have a test tomorrow, which is April (4) 20th (20)....and I didnt know why, this girl Christina she'd be really high that day, but not a clue why, haha. Then today I found out that its National Pot Smoking day. How sad is that, honestly. These people dont know when they can smoke pot so they have to set a date, jkjk. I find it amusing, but upseting at the same time. I cant help but think....what would God have to say about this? I dont know how to describe my exact feelings, but all I know is that...it hurts to see people doing this to themselves, and to God. Growing up with a brother that smoked a lot of pot, I've seen what it can do. I was also talking to my friend...and her sister got so into drugs that she is now 22, I think, but has the mind of a 12 year old because of all the drugs. Granted, it would have been more than Pot, but yeah. My dad and I were also talking about it, Pot kills brain cells, hence why it's so "relaxing"...you're brain isnt functioning properly.

This is something I worked on at school, not for an assignment or anything, just cause its cool. And it made me think....these are "my kids" and my friends....if churches continue to go on the path they are going, Salvation Army Churches at least....we WILL lose these kids. And who knows, maybe because of that....4 20 will be a big thing in their lives that make them mad at teachers and school because they give them tests when their gonna be super high.

Just something to think about,
Court

pretty cool

Yeah...so I was at school today, kinda having a bad day, sick, tired etc. BUT...I enter my Art Class, and I looked on the table I work at, and I look down and theres a panflit sitting there, i didnt put much though to it, until I looked a little closer and noticed it had scripture verses on it, which is pretty odd considering it's a public school where God isnt even allowed to be mentioned. So I thought it was pretty cool to see that God can show up and so many places, unexpected places. These are the verses on it.

1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary? Who may live on your holy hill? 2 He whose walk is blameless and who does what is righteous, who speaks the truth from his heart 3 and has no slander on his tongue, who does his neighbor no wrong and casts no slur on his fellowman, 4 who despises a vile man but honors those who fear the LORD, who keeps his oath even when it hurts, 5 who lends his money without usury and does not accept a bribe against the innocent. He who does these things will never be shaken. ~Psalm 15:1-5

9 The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out.

~Proverbs 10:9

12Above all, my brothers, do not swear—not by heaven or by earth or by anything else. Let your "Yes" be yes, and your "No," no, or you will be condemned.

~James 5:12

Ummm....

Whats today actually called? Easter Saturday? I dont know, haha. I asked my Cousin and she told me "the day in between" so I figure I'll go with that, haha. Anyways...I know this is a little....delayed, but if you can...you should watch this video clip...its amazing, it makes me cry.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6159683545826314430&q=Crucifixion&pl=true

Courtney

Well, it's good friday

"For God SO loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life" - John 3:16

When you go about your day today, don't think of it as "GOSH another day I have to go to church" but rather think of it as a day of reflection, reflection on Jesus Christ, his love that is so deep that he would die for us. A love that is so great that he would go to hell for us, even if it wasn't a lifetime in hell, it was only 3 days, he still went. A love that is unfailing, that makes you feel all 'warm and fuzzy' inside. A love that is Jesus, that CREATES Jesus.

"may I never boast, but of the cross" - Unknown

Courtney

I must be doing something right!

Alirght, so I dont mean to sound like Im perfect or anything, BUT...you see, Im at church about 6 out of 7 nights a week...and about 4 of those (including Jr. Band) Im involved with kids. And growing up with all these role models come in and out of my life, all from church...I decided that I want to be a role model (thats so not the right word!) for the kids in my life. Umm...one kid, everytime he sees me, it's "COURTNEY!!!!" and he boots it across the room to give me a hug...haha...actually, I got up to pray a couple weeks ago...and Im in the middle of my prayer, and all of the sudden I hear this really loud "I JUST WANT TO GIVE COURTNEY A HUG!" Sure enough, I glance down off the platform, and there Geoffrey trying to squirm away from his mom trying to run up and give me a hug. And then like....when I teach sunday school all these kids come up and tell me about there week and stuff, and their families etc. And this one young lady (I cant call her a kid anymore, she's 13, I think *tear*) sits with me all the time at church, and along with her friend May. Last but not least, these 2 kids in Jr band started fighting over which of them was gonna billet with me when we go to Drumheller. I don't know, but I must be influencing these kids in some way if all this is going on. But I have to say, I wont ever let anyone take my kids away from me!!

~Court~

Mosh for Jesus!

<-------- So I found this picture on the internet last night, and fell in love with
<-------- it. It's amazing! Mainly because....it's like...my saying! Well, kind of
<-------- I've never actually said it, but I when I mosh....I always mosh for Jesus, and it's amazing. It's the most amazing form of worhsip you'll ever know!

I'm sorry

I'm sorry you just up and left
without any notice at all

I'm sorry you kept saying you care
then never do anything about it

I'm sory you hurt me,
as bad as you did

But most of all, I'm sorry I tried defending you
I'm sorry I ever trusted you

I'm sorry I believed you when you told me
you care about me

I'm sorry I believed you
everytime you said you wanted to be a better friend

But really, I'm sorry if you want to come back
and want to be friends again

I'm sorry I'll accept you
and set myself up for all this pain again


This post is dedicated to someone that I care about, and that I think about often, but I never get the courage to tell her how I feel because I dont want to hurt her, Someone who I considered a sister at one point in time.

Pictures and post

Alright, so I must say, my hands are killing me. We're doing wire sculptures in art, and I keep poking myself, haha. But I have to say, Im quite proud, I havent started bleeding, yet! Umm...this pic is Simone and I in banff. I think its pretty cool. Simone is my bestest friend ever. She's pretty cool, she's got some skills. One memory I have, when we were in banff, something happened, I dont really wanna go into it, but she could tell I was upset, so she turned on the song "lonely" by Akon, and thats our song, we sang it so much in California, and we got about 4 lines in and I broke down crying, and she grabbed me and held me for it felt like forever, but it was the most amazing thing ever, because we are usually the kind of friends that dont get too sad around each other, and we're always really stupid and making fools of ourselves, but theres the odd time that we try to support each other. Thanks Simone!

So this is yet another dedication

This one is dedicated to Kimberly Erin Burgess.


I don’t know what you’re going through
I don’t even know what to say
Except, I’m here for you
I love you

I wish I could protect you from the pain
I wish I could make it better
But God has a Plan
He loves you

God has a plan, and this is part of it
God has a reason for doing this to you
I know it’s hard to understand
He loves you

There one thing left to say
There one thing left, and only you can do it
It’s not as easy as it sounds
Love yourself

Alright, so I havent posted in a few days, but I've been really run-down and stressed out with friends and school and such. But heres a post!! YAY. I've had a total lack of sleep! I hate when you're really tired, so you try to go to bed earlier than normal, and you don't fall asleep until like...an hour after you usually do. Oh well. I went to Peters 26th birthday party last night, it was awesome...good Job on the planning Amanda! Haha...Allison and I hung the streamers, but we did them a little low, we were worried peter would hang himself, but he didn't, thank goodness, lol. So Im really starting to get excited about camp, I over heard a girl saying that schools out in like....83 days or something, but that was yesterday, so now its 82! YAY. Wow, Im very tired, so Im sorry this is so Random. I have barely seen my family at all in the last week, aside from getting rides from my dad etc. Pretty craaaaaaazy. OO...I saw Angie on Sunday, it was pretty cool, if you read this Angie, I want you to know I love you, and Im always here for you. And I've been talking a little to my friend, whos dad died, and she says she doing pretty good, but Im not too convinced. She's the kind of person that would be there for her family, and be strong, and act like it doesnt bother her for the sake of her family, and we all know that isnt good. So yeah, if you could, could you say a little prayer for her and her brother and mom? Thanks!

Court

Heres to him

So....he doesnt know, but I like him desperatley, hehe. He's cool...Im not gonna say his name, but he's awesome! This is for him...

Forgive me if I st-stutter From all of the clutter in my head Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes Like a water bed Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times, no more camouflage I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall. Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have And cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will You always want what you can't have But I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will For you I will For you I will For you If I could dim the lights in the mall And create a mood I would Shout out your name so it echos in every room I would That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you, yeah Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have And cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will You always want what you can't have But I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will For you I will For you I will For you I will.



Courtney

everyone!! Keep August 29th 2012 free!!!!

Seeing as, Im getting Married that day, I thought I'd share some of my wedding plans with ya'll. In case you're wondering about a guy, there is none, yet, it'll come! Thats just a last minute detail that doesnt really need to be added until about a year before the wedding, lol.

K, so here it goes!

Im going to walk down the Isle to Canon in D by Pachaelbel.
The ceremony will be in the pines at camp.
The reception will be outdoor probably behind the pines
My side of the wedding party will Be Alicia (being my sister, she has to be the Maid of Honor), Simone, Kristyn, My sister daughter (if she has one by then), and one more person, yet to be added. I figure I'll let my husband chose his groomsmen.
When we leave down the dirt road, my wedding cast (if thats what its called, haha) is gonna sing "we go together" from Grease, and then in the last few bars, a horse-drawn Carrige, with a white horse will ride up the road, pick us up, and we'll ride down the road out of camp.

I have my dress picked out and everything! It's going to be Simple, yet...elegant, and my bridesmaids dresses are going to be a silky satin, if that makes sense, and it's going to be like....easter purple kind of. Heres a pic of my dress.
~Court~

Prayer please!

Hey guys,

Umm...Im really sorry to do this, I know I do it a lot...but umm...one of my really good friends Dad just died this morning, he had a heart attack, I just wondered if you could pray for her and her family? That would be amazing.