MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Hey

Yeah...so I had an awesome Christmas. I got to see my aunt and uncle...who I havent seen since last Christmas....and my grandparents and stuff. It was really fun. I got some wicked gifts too. My favorites are my MP3 polayer and my belt...haha its one of those belts that you can program messages into and it flashes the messages across....yeah its awesome. And my family got Bop it which...I know...its like...5 years old but its still fun! But yeah...Oh...and I got a Hillsong united CD..which is soooo good! But I think my favorite part was the family time. Seeing my family that I havent seen for a long time...and spending time with family and not fighting..haha. Yeah...thats my Christmas story.

~Court~

Oh dear!

hey

K so I havent updated this in close to a month...so I want to say...things have gotten better. My uncles good...and everything great. Things with my friends problems still havent sorted out...but I cant worry about them, otherwise Im gonna screw my life up worrying about everyone elses problems. I still love them...and Im still concerned...but its not taking over my life anymore. God made me better than that. God is my rock...hes kept me sooo strong through all of this stuff. So Christmas is coming soon! YAY! Its going to be fun. And guess what I want? A HIPPOPOTAMUS!!!! haha...I love that song. Anyways...I have to go...cause Im talking to Naomie...cause shes cool!

~Court~

Will it get better?

Will it get better?
For me?
For her?
For everybody?
When will the pain go away?
when can I feel 100% happy again?

Will it get better?
for her?
for him?
for them?
when will they be happy again?
when will they feel normal?

WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER FOR US?!
Why did it all happen at once? I cry so much....at least on the inside! I worry so much about you guys! Because I love you. I wish you didnt have to go through this!

HAHA

Hey

Yeah...I pretty much had an AMAZING weekend. My bestest friend Sam came from red deer to see us...on like....2 hours notice...because it took us 2 hours to drive up and get her. Yeah...it was an amazing weekend. We got sooo close...and yeah. Shes so funny...and pretty...no matter what she tells you. haha...she put on my Barney suit that I had when i was like...5...it was so cute! So I a pic of her in that...its sooo funny. I love you Sam. We totally baked at 2:15 on friday night/saturday morning. Oh boy were the cookies ever Floury...Apparently I cant flour stuff....lol.

OOO...and I also went to the mall with my baby today....Julia...shes a year old and I love her soooo much...she's amazing. She rode the Escalator on her feet for the first time without someone holding her...I obviously held her hands...but yeah. That reminds me...Sam...we gotta get you on more escalators...and no worries...they won't eat your feet...HAHA. Theres a pic of Julia...she made me laugh so hard.

Hey

Hey anyone who reads this (haha...probably no one!)

Hows it going? well...Im sick...have been for like...a week and a bit...and let me tell YOU...it frigen sucks. Anyways...I dont have all that much to say. Oh....my friend started talking to me more...which is AWESOME! It's made me sooo happy...without her...theres something missing...cause I know when she doesnt talk...theres something wrong...because she's just that kind of person. I love her soooo much....and I think...if you're reading this...you know who you are. OOO...funniest thing EVER!! Simone and I went to McDonalds on saturday and a drunk 16 year old came over and started talking to us about the stupidest things...like...how he didnt remember how he got to McDonalds...and he thought he knew me...and then told me I looked like one of his Cousins...because I was wearing my **new cowboy hat** and he was like "yeah...cause my whole family are hicks...so thats why you look like my cousin" soo funny...then he was leaving..and he came back and HAD to give us hugs...it was very funny...but kinda creepy at the same time. I dont know if you read this or not...but I just wanna say...I LOVE YOU ARLENE!!!! OOO and I can't forget Dana...you guys are sooo cool....haha...I love you! Anyways..I have quench practise soon...so I have to go.

~Court~

Mad, Sad and confused

Guys...I dont understand...one of my absolute best friends is being really grumpy with me...and I think she hates me...and I dont know why...I dont know what I did to make her mad...all her msn names seem so happy...but when I talk to her...she gets mad and AGH...I hate this! I feel like Im losing her...and I dont want too...shes sooo cool...and shes just...awesome. I left my house one time super early to go and spend time with her before a wedding...and now she hates me? What the Heck?!?!?! I try and be a good friend...and she shoves me away...why?!?

Romans 8:37-39

"No, all these things were more than conquerers through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither life nor death, neither Angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." This basicly says nothing can take us from the love that God shows. Now...I'm not disagreeing with that in anyway....but what I do want to say is....if thats so...why are a lot of people all like "no one loves me" and everything like that? Personally...I think its because they block that particular love out...because they're scared of it...or they're ashamed or something...Im not really sure. Off the topic of Gods love a bit...I think people ignore God when he's trying to talk to them...and no...not just some people...everyone does it...maybe not all the time...but everyone does it...mostly when he's trying to tell you something you really dont wanna hear. But Im actually talking about people feeling convicted and tried...but pushing that aside...people that arent Christians...and say they hate almost everything to do with Christianity. I dont know where Im going with that...so Im gonna stop there before it turns into a whole bunch of pointless ramblings. But if you have comments on what I said...Contridictions...agreements...arguements...Please...email me...leave a comment...call me...I want to hear from you!!!

YC was HOTT

Hey

K...so yc was soooo good. I got so much closer to God....and friends. Sam....it was AMAZING to see you! Remeber to keep in good contact with Ray. Yeah...I got hit in the face with a tetherball...I was winning too!! I hit the ball...and it wrapped around the pole and came back to hit me across the face...WHICH by the way....still hurts! That was yesterday....and It still hurts. The sessions were so spiritual...I was in tears everyday...not many people (if any) cried today....except me...but that was for kinda personal reasons which Im not gonna say right now. AHAHAHA!! Funniest thing EVER! Simone and I were sitting in the back seat on the way up to camp....and my mom slammed on the brakes...and the WHOLE bench went forward...we screamed almost as much as were did on the Hollywood tower...So after that we kept playing with it. It scared us though like everytime it went forward...but whats a ride up to camp without a couple scares right? Everytime it would fall forward we'd push really hard backwards and the seat would tilt back...and our feet were like...dangling there...it was amazing! But my mom got Micheal fix it before we came home...what a bum...who cares if its Illigal?? If we wear our seatbelts were fine cause the luggage was holding us up so we couldnt fall back to far. It was very fun though. Oh...and just to add to the adventure...my mom gets lost on the way to come...32 YEARS OF DRIVING TO CAMP...this is the first time she's ever got lost. It was funny...so shes hitting the breaks and simone and I are flying forward and then she accelerates really fast and we fly back. Funnest one ever though I think was when the bench went up further than ever....and it didnt stop for like...10 seconds...which...I know doesnt so long....but when your used to going up so far...then all of the sudden it moves up like...3 feet more...its scary! I tried to Kill Sammy...AGAIN (Apparently)! Yeah...and Sam kept getting mad cause I was taking pictures up her nose...apparently...haha YOUR MOM! lol...Move your butt.....Move your face...lol...that was amazing. Anyways...Thats enough for now. NAV I MISSED YOU...how did everything go in calgary???

~Court~

Do you know???

I wrote this a few days ago...and wanted to share it with you..


Do you know what it's like? Because, Unless your going through it, or have gone through it, it's merely impossible to know. I don't know, I know I cry when I think about it, but I can't even bign to imagine the pain, the struggle, the regret. Did they do something to deserve something as terrible as this? They're still human, they still deserve to be treated like it. Inside, were no better than them, they've faced trials, like us, some of them may have dealt with them differen't, but they're JUST LIKE US! We should be supporting them, and trying to help them, not looking at them with disgust, or fear. If you look at them in that way, you may as well look at yourself in the same way. They're not animals, and they're not murderers, they're human, 95% of them have hearts of gold, and are nicer than you and me. Sure they have some problems, but everyone does. There is not a single person in this world that has no problem, whatsoever.


If you can figure that out...leave a comment...let me know who YOU think its about.

~Court~

Dear Kelly

Dear Kelly,

It's been nearly a year now. I'm sorry I never got to spend time with you. I'm sorry I never went for coffee with you. I'm sorry whenever you'd call my house drunk, I'd get annoyed. I'm just sorry for everything!! I miss you so much. You were such a beautiful person, and you were special to me. When Arden took your life, he took a piece of me too. I wish I could tell you this stuff in person, but I was to late. I was to self-centered to stop and realize how much you really cared about me, and how much I cared about you. I'm going to regret all this all my life. I miss you, and always will. I can't bring myself to take your number off my cell phone...I will always remember you. Thank you for everything you've done.

I love you!
~Courtney~

:(

Hey Guys

So I think...most of you probably know...about a year ago...we had a friend go missing...and then in november...ish...we found out she had been murdered. Well...I've actually been really struggling with it lately...the past couple days...cause, I had to send pictures from my old school computer to my email...and I've been going through those and theres a whole bunch of her from her funeral. I dont know why all of the sudden I'm bumbed out about it...usually after a couple months...Im not grieving anymore...and now...its been almost a year and Im still nearly crying about it. If you guys (if you pray)...if you could just pray for her family and friends...especially her dad...yeah. If you have any questions about it...I totally wanna answer them...i just cant stay long...so yeah...feel free to ask questions about the murder...and anything!

~Court~

Who is Christ?

At bible study last night...Peter asked the question "Who is Christ?" and it really got me thinking. If someone were to ask me that....what would I say? I honetly can't answer that because...He's God's son, God's right hand man, and God....so honetly...how do you answer that without the person thinking your crazy? If you have any answers...whatsoever...feel free to tell me..I think that would be cool!

YAYness

Hey guys (no gansta talk)

Today was awesome!! I didnt eat lunch alone...HURRAY! lol. Kaitlynn ate with me...we sit together in math..which is right before lunch...and our lockers are right beside each others...so we put our stuff away and walked over to the gas station together for lunch. And....tonight...is the first Survivor bible study of the year YIPEE!! So I have to leave soon. But yeah...GRRR...I miss everyone soooo fricken much!its really not fair. Oh well. Im really beggining to think no one reads this...cause no one ever leaves comments...btw...thanks Amanda! Howd you get my blog? Hmmm...I should go...cause..yeah....Bible study WOOHOO!

Soo...

Hey G's (HA! thats right Im gangsta!...I've been doing that a lot lately...dont know why!..lol)

I ate lunch alone today again...so far..thats thursday...friday...I think saturday...yesterday (monday) and today. But I looked in my locker at all my friends (the pictures) and smiled...especially at Kryz and Annalise Kranenburg! oh well...sometimes being the one eating along is better than being the ones who make other people sit along right? I have to go soon...Michaels taking Simone and I to B*witched tonight. I just wanna say...all my friends from camp...you guys are all amazing (hott...eh Elisha?) and I miss you so much!!! Right now...I really miss Arlene, Elisha and Krystal...I love you guys!!!!! and Everyone else too. And Arlene...my mom and I are really gonna work on my dad to get that nose ring...if I ever come up for a weekend...thats my rule...I have to be in lethbridge in order to do it! Anyways...I really should go...ttyl! Leave comments!!!

~Skwittles (or court)~

:(

Hey all

Im having a bit of a downer of a night...actually...tonight has just plain sucked! First...I went out to look for my grease CD...which I put in the Van the last day of music camp...and my dad said it was probably just in a CD case...and I looked in all of them..and it wasnt in any of them...and my sister gave it to me 2 days before she left for australia. It makes me soooo mad...and sad...ask my cosuin...I was soooo mad! Then I just really started missing everyone from camp. Yeah...camps an amazing place to be...and the people are soooo awesome to be around...the only crappy part is having to come home and have to go through all the camp withdrawls. Why does it happen like that? If someone actually leaves a post (or emails me), and can answer that question...I would be sooo shocked! But seriously, I know everyone goes through camp withdrawls...but, yeah. wow...I just realized the computer clock is right again...it was an hour off for a while. Anyways..yeah...I just needed to write out some of my feelings...and it made me feel sooo much better...thank you everybody who read this, for actually taking the time!

Cool stuff

Hey

Yeah....so i started school this week...real school. For everyone that didnt know...I did virtual school at home for 5 years before this. Its pretty cool...I met a couple cool people...Cathy and Erin...and Emma...but I've known emma for like...7 or 8 years. And then my locker neighbor (I dont know her name though...haha). Hmm...yeah...I totally didnt want to go...but I really felt God telling me too...especially after my cousin told me to this summer (thanks Jenn). And on monday...my mom was like "were going to enroll you in school tomorrow" and I like freaked out...it was craaazy. Then I went and prayed and read my bible...and came out excited about it though...which is really weird.... but yeah....God totally answered my prayer...and fast...its only the second time thats ever happened...the only other time was at winter weekend. I just totally wanna give a shout-out to God...cause he totally helped me through this stuff...and yeah...he's awesome...and I'm really not trying to preach...I just wanted to say whats on my mind! If you have questions about what I wrote...or about God...even if you are a Christian...ask me!

~Court~

Funny funny stuff from camp

~Yours hairs is long....haha Arlene!
~THIS IS A RAID! Were not gonna do anything....but were saying its a raid anyways...lol...sr. boys
~ Uhhhh....guys...my finger is seriously stuck in my hair....oh Arlene....I love you so much!
~ haha....the frog/monkey/lion/giraffe
~ major second, major 3rd, perfect forth, perfect fifth, major sixth, major seventh, octopus...Awww..Annalise is soooo cute.
~ Joy down gangsta style
~ I had no one to do....lol...that was one fun devos...for all you who remember.
~ hahaha...Laura slamming her thumb in the window!
~ HAHA...Jayden and Noelle Flicking Arlenes gum off the table...Priceless!~
~ Singing your the one that I want...and Arlene singing the guys back-up part...so funny!
~ Going to flagbreak soaking wet because that one prank went wrong...and it was all my fault...lol...sorry Guys "OH MOTHER!"
~ lol...the fake intermediate fight
~ ooo...digging through a tub of worms with my mouth...sooo fun!
~ haha...all the pepsi falling out eh Sarah?!
~ Arlene not trusting us to take her back to the Tarzan rope...haha
~ Playing Tetherball...especially with Arlene...Hows that armpit doing?
~ Arlene asking us to roll down the hill...the blaming it on us when she felt dizzy
~ Chicken fights!
~ haha...cat food on crackers...it would make a very good appetizer
~ haha...waxing the boys legs (Pauls hair still hasnt grown back yet...its still super smooth)
~ Oh right...cant forget the Scorpion in the pool biting us.
~ The net Matt and Stefan left for us in our room (thanks guys)
~ Then tripping over the net...looking up...and seeing none other than My counceller laughing at me...haha...oh I love you...your so cool
~ Stealing the toilet seats with Lori...so fun!
~And last but certainly not least (drumroll please...haha..Im a geek), Brandon catching us on our raid..and thinking we were locked it richards room!

Hello my name is Courtsney....lol

Hey....so in case your wondering about the whole courtsney thing....Lori accidentally called me Courtsney at camp cause she had a mouthful of Chips or something...and Laura continued it. Courtsney and Skwittles...I went to say skittles...and an extra w slipped in there somehow...lol. Hmm....lets see....some camp stories...hmmm.....k...first day of Music camp....we had a meet the counceller thing...and Arlene kept trying to convince us she was from LA...when Really...shes from Lethbridge...haha...get it...Lethbridge...Alberta...ha, yeah...it was funny....it may not sound that funny though. Hmm...what else? ....... Oh yeah...I took Krystal and Laura to low ropes and we kept whipping the tarzan rope at each other. Oh...and Krystal whipped me right on the side of the face....the bottom of my arm...and umm....other places....lol. theres so many stories I cant fit them all in....lets see...we went to prank the Sr. Boys...and wrecked it by tripping...landing on my water ballons...and screamed "OH MOTHER"...I know the whole oh mother thing doesnt make sense....but for some reason I started saying it at camp. and uh...yeah. Haha...one night...I told Arlene I'd do devotions...and she kept making us laugh. And after everyone finally stopped laughing...I started reading a verse...or something...and all of the sudden we heard this "uhh...guys..." so we all looked up...and Arlene was sitting there with here finger in her hair...and she was like "K...my finger is seriously stuck in my hair" haha...it was sooo funny. Yeah...anyways..thats it for now...Someone....place a comment!

~~Courtsney~~

Ashlee ...... Castor

Ashlee is super super cool! She makes me laugh...all the time...except when shes sad...then Im sad cause were bestest friends and yeah! I love her lots...shes hust like my sister! She lives in a city...in a province...in a country...and yeah...shes really cool. She has black hair...and yeah...she sure likes to sleep...and she likes veggietales :D She has lots of friends. and lotsa people love her cause shes one of those loveable people....that everyone loves.

HA!

Hey all

Im so tired. And Im hyper too! Those tired hyper moments are soooo cool! So...My sisters in California for the summer now...which is pretty cool. We thought we were having a tornado yesterday...it scared the crap out of me! Apparently I missed a good weekend at womens camp...but w/e. I have to go....ttyl

Life eh?

So....life is pretty cool eh? I think so....its awesome. Some stuff that happens really sucks....but then...well....something good happens and its all good...right? Not necisarily. Just because something good happens doesn't mean everythings better...but life is sure good with God. He totally helps you with everything that happens. I've had my fair share of problems...but prayer helps the most...of all the ways I've tried to get over my problems...prayer works the best. Trust me...I've tried screaming...punching...wanting to put holes in the walls...running away...nearly cutting (so Glad I didnt though)...but the only way that works really for me....is to crawl into my closet (yes my closet) and pull out my flashlight, read my bible and pray...While listening to Praise and worship music. If you dont pray...and your having a problem...and you feel comfortable with it...ask someone to pray for you...or with you if you feel comfortable enough. Don't turn to drugs and Alchohol...I've seen how that can destroy a family. It may feel good at the time....but in the long run...when you look back at the stupid things you've done while under the influence...you'll regret it. I'm really glad I got Jesus in my life when I did...otherwise I dont know where I'd be. I just wanted to tell you that...cause I love him...and he loves me...and when you really truly love him...you can totally feel his presence...in good times and bad times...its amazing.

Awesomeness

Hey Ya'll

Yes, I said Ya'll and I have no fricken clue why! Anyways....I havent posted anything for a long time, so...here it is. I got back from cranbrook almost 2 weeks ago...It was amazing times. I saw everything from 6 golden eagles, to a dead elk. Pretty amazing eh? Yeah, I had so much fun. and I got to hang out with Liam! He's the best baby. And I got to see Janessa and my cousins and aunt and uncle. And yeah...it was pretty wicked. Hmm...Im going back to BC in a week to go to Vancouver.....thats gonna be awesome too. Im so stoked. Im so hyper right now...and hungry!! Hmm....what else can I say? Nothing apparently.

Bored

Hey

I was bored, so I thought I'd add something. We heard from My sister (whos in australia) yesterday....shes really having fun. She got invited to go tour the west coast (I think its the west coast) with Auslife, a Christian orginization there. If she goes, it'll be in november I think. I really miss her though....we used to hang out all the time....I havent gone to the movie theatre since she left...cause thats always what we used to do together. We'd take the train (or walk) to the theatre (in canyon meadows). we saw a couple movies like...4 times each just so we could have an excuse to hang out together...its weird without her. But thats ok....I have Ashley and Angie who keep me company..as much as they can. All my friends know that I'm having a hard time with it though...they somehow all figured it out...so they help me a bit...which awesome.Anyways...thats what I have to say today...so....yeah

Always make sure the lid is ALL the way up!

Hey...So yeah, simone and I went to jack astors yesterday....and weird stuff happens when I go to jack astors...last time...I got chicken stuck in my head and nearly died (long story) and this time...I went to dump the ketchup on my fries...and the lid closed...and there was ketchup all over the lid...inside and out...Oh my, was it ever weird....Yup. It was fun. We watched Dogeball today...Oh my freaken gosh...SO FUNNY!!! were taking a road trip when we graduate....all the way to Grande prarie...Wow....isnt that awesome? I think it is. Guess what? I love Jesus...Do you? I love my friends too. I wanna give a shoutout too...hmm...Angie, Corrine, Simone...Teresa...Kim....Kristyn...i love you all and everyone else. Just in case your wondering...No...I'm not high.

Experiences

K, so I thought I'd share some of my wicked awesome experiences with you. I've been having a really tough year, not a lot of people know about it though...but anyways...I've been really struggling in a couple different ways. I prayed for the longest time that God would bring something good into my life. And the more I prayed, the worse things Got. Which didn't make sense, because God tells us that were supposed to trust him. But about 2 months ago.....I made an awesome friend...and when I get to see her, I just light up. I get to see her a lot. And She works with my mom (yes..you know who you are), and she's totally befriended me. Right when I started to feel like everyone was leaving my life...God sent me this girl, and it's amazing. And now...just recently, one of my friends from grade school has come back into my life...and thats been really amazing. And, God's just been working miracles in my life. I know...this is pretty boring...but I wanted you all to know that God really is amazing.

Febuary 4th 2005

It's friday the 4th....and guess what? Alicia's on her way to Australia. For those of you who don't know...Alicia is my sister. She's going for a year of youth leadership training. She's been excited for a year about it and it finally came. She was a little nervous. But Now, I miss her like heck. We've become really good friends over the past year....and I really didnt want her to go. But I'm super happy for her. She's in Vancouver right now. She's been there for like, 5 hours or something like that. Anyways...thats it for now.