So its been a week

I haven't blogged in a week...its been a weird week. last friday at recre8 Leighanne had a bit of a freak out...she was on some bad drugs and got pretty aggressive, so we had to Bar her for a month. It was pretty intense. But the thing is, she left too quickly and we couldnt actually tell her she was barred. So we went to see her on teusday night...twice and she didnt answer the door either time. Then Nicole and I went I went to her hotel and werent permitted up, so we left a note. Then...we went to Insight to leave a note. That was interesting. It wasnt open yet by the time we got there...and there were people standing outside just waiting to get in. It was like kids waiting to get into a candy shop...at first I thought it was kinda funny, but then I was like...Wait..not so funny. Their Candy is drugs. They are waiting to get in to get drugs. It just made me so sad.

But anyways, back to Leighanne. I saw her randomly as I was coming out of Carnegie...and so I went to talk to her. I was waiting for her to just walk away because she hated us last friday. But she came up and gave me a hug. Told me she helped deliver a baby in her room the night before *Awkward*. Then I was like...we need to talk about what happened at recre8. And she was like..."How long until I can come back?" and I told her a month and she was so apologetic, but so understanding. She was like..."I'll apologize to everyone." then i told her I'd let her know the day she can come back. She was so great. She wants to get into detox, which she says often, but I want to try to get her in and see if she's being serious about it this time.

Anyways, thats basically been my week.

God is Just

My friend is dying of cancer and aids

But God is still Just

My friends dad is going to Prison

But God is still Just

There are women being exploited, and they think its empowering to them

But God is still Just

There are friends shooting other friends up while they're passed out

But God is still Just

There are people dying all around me

But God is still Just


God is a Just God. The song God of Justice has been really big for me the last couple of days. When it says "we must go, live to feed the hungry, stand beside the broken, we must go. Stepping forward, keep us from just singing. Move us into action, we must Go". Yesterday, I was sitting in a session at RAW with Leighanne, and the speaker, Rochelle McAlister (who was an amazing speaker...PS) mention how the Average age expectancy of death in Canada is 80.4. When she said that, Leighanne looked at me and burst into tears and so I sat with her for quite a while just holding her while she cried. It was a beautiful moment, but heartbreaking at the exact same time.

God is Just, even if the world is not.

How Marvelous

The last few days have been weird. Thursday I was kind of in a weird mood all day, then we got to knee drill and the spirit just came over me in an amazing way. We were singing "Exalted" by Chris tomlin and it was just an amazing moment for me.

Then yesterday, I got locked out of my room...so I went to Crab park and just stood on the beach..ish area and How Marvelous came on my ipod and I started crying...again..I beautiful moment. I was looking and seeing the ocean and the mountains...and like...it was just such a God moment. It was fantastic.

I feel like God is wanting to have a more intimate relationship with me...and im so excited for it!

On a side note...I really just love 614 a lot. I love the community. I just really love it.

Sad-sies

I'm just having a sad day.

I walked passed a man shooting up in his thigh with his pants down

I spent 15 dollars on 4 gluten free groceries

I threw up 5 times after eating one of the gluten free items

I tried to sleep but the mice woke me up cause they were fighting

I just feel sad today

wow

So quite a bit of stuff has happened in the last 5 days. I haven't really felt like blogging cause I dont really know what to say. I've been in the war room (prayer room) 4 times in the last 3 days praying about a whole bunch of stuff, for other people and also for myself, for revelation for myself.

I love 614. I think the community life is beautiful. I love being held accountable to things...and i love living on the dtes. There is so much glory and beauty in the DTES. I love it soooo much!

Thats about all Im gonna say right now.