Saying good-bye is hard

Saying Good-bye to someone is one of the hardest things a person goes through, if not THE hardest thing. Whether its saying good-bye to someone who has passed away, or whos moving away...or if your moving away and you have to say good-bye to everyone around you.

I have been working through 2 of those good-byes. My grandfather died...which has been really hard. He died on May 16. I was doing alright with it for a bit...after the funeral and everything...I was fine, I went to yc and danced and had fun and it was all fine...and then I had my grad...and I looked up to my family...and he wasn't there and it was so hard. He was always there for milestones in our lives...he was always there no matter what. And never complained about it. And I started recovering, again...or at least I thought I did. Then last week...we had a grief lesson at sunday school and that just brought out more emotions...and this last week...my emotions have been rolling. Because of that...and because Im leaving soon. Im so excited to go to Vancouver and Im going out of my mind here...because I know something bigger and better is coming up. And friday, we had a bonfire with some people from school...and saying good-bye to them was incredibly hard. And then today, they did kind of the "final good-bye" at church...and it wasn't too hard for me...but then I looked around and there were people crying...and then there was my mom who was like...weeping...haha.

I dont want to say good-bye...but Im so excited to leave. Everyones like "I dont want you to go" "i cant believe your leaving" and its like...i feel like I shouldn't be as happy or excited as I am. Everyone around me is so bumed that Im leaving and everytime I talk about it...I just want to jump in the air and dance...I know it sounds corney, haha...but its the truth. Im excited beyond belief.

Anyways...thats all Im gonna say for today