I love my sister!

My sister and I are doing a a Christmas gift for my mom this Christmas, and because of it, we had to scan in a whole crap load of pictures of us growing up. I want to share some pictures with you all of me and my sibling growing up!

Love ya'll!!

Court

I wish I could move on......

I was listening to this song today, and I totally realized how close it is to how I've been feeling lately. The only part of it is when it says "im moving on" and sometimes, I only wish i could, but yeah...here are the lyrics. Its called well...I'm moving on...and its by Rascal flats.

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demonsFinally content with a past I regretI've found you find strength in your moments of weaknessFor once I'm at peace with myselfI've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too longI'm movin' onI've lived in this place and I know all the facesEach one is different but they're always the sameThey mean me no harm but it's time that I face itThey'll never allow me to changeBut I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belongI'm movin' onI'm movin' onAt last I can see life has been patiently waiting for meAnd I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not aloneThere comes a time in everyone's lifeWhen all you can see are the years passing byAnd I have made up my mind that those days are goneI sold what I could and packed what I couldn'tStopped to fill up on my way out of townI've loved like I should but lived that I shouldn'tI had to lose everything to find outMaybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this roadI'm movin' onI'm movin' onI'm movin' on

Christmas!!!!

Its November 3, which mean...Christmas is almost here!!! Well....not really, but its that time for Santa palaces to start being set up, Christmas stores to open in the malls, the 12 days of Christms starts next sunday at Heritage park, and well....I started listening to Christmas music. And, last night I got an email that contained an early Christmas gift. In the email contained information that a really good friend of mine is having a baby, and I was super excited! And Theres only one more thing I want for Christmas. I want a hippopotamus for Christmas, only a hippopotamus will do, Dont want a doll, no dinky tinker toy, I want a hippopotamus to play with and enjoy. That is what I want for Christmas, haha. I sang the song for like...a month last year and I didn't even get a plastic hippo, or a stuffed hippo, my UNCLE got one for Christmas, but I didnt and I was sad. But thats ok. Does disney have hippos? I figure, the first good snowfall is a sign of Christmas. And also, we started play practises and stuff so Im all in Christmas mode. My sister and I are going Christmas present shopping tonight and Im excited.

Bye!

Just for Peaches!

So Peaches wanted to see pictures of my costume. So here they are, they aren't great just because they were from my phone, when I get more I'll post them. Oh, and Peaches...I hear life has been going pretty good for you the last week or so.......

Courtney

Micheal Jackson

So, for youth group on friday night we had a costume party. And I couldnt figure out what I should be, so I went to the store, and bought a wig, which is an afro. Then I came home and took out my dads tacky tux, and I looked, black hair, white face, and a weird suit, Micheal Jackson. So that is who I am for Halloween, haha.

Court

Crazy Calgary

I love Calgary, honestly, I love everything about it. I love the fact that I can walk out of my house in July and there could very easily be snow on the ground, or walk out in december and its 30 degrees out. I also love driving in Calgary. Its not as scary as some people think, except getting lost...getting lost in Calgary is much different then getting lost in red deer, haha. But the point of this is that today, I was off to play practise, and I had to scrape the window for the first time by myself. And yeah, I know it doesnt sound that hard, but trust me, I wanted to get it perfect! I nearly climbed up on the van in order to get all the frost, then I realized if I just turned defrost on it would get rid of the stuff. A lot of people find that kind of thing to be a hassle but I love it! I think it reminds me when I was little, and I used to want to scrape the windows, and I'd only get like...3 inches on each side and I'd think I did so good haha. Yeah, I love summer because it means no school and camp, but Winter always reminds me of the time I got to spend with my dad. When I think of snow, I think of the times that I built forts with my dad or had snow ball fights with him or going sledding, or skating. I love those memories. Anyways, I should be going.

Love ya'll
Court

Update!

Alright so the whole trying to lose weight thing is so amazing. I havent lost any weight, but I mean...I've only been going at it for less then a week. I havent had a single chip since I started, except for sun chips, but they are better for you then potato chips. I feel so awesome though. Im really noticing that I've had more energy and stuff since I started. And plus...I totally just schooled my dad at basketball...heck yes!

Well....I figured I should post again...

Nothing exciting ever happens to me anymore, haha...so I've been trying to figure out what to post about. Then I figured I'd post about what I've been learning. My Daddy's been teaching me guitar, and its so cool. I like to play both accoustic and electric, Although, I only know 2 chords, haha. But yeah...thats my life. Oh, and the guitars in the pic arent mine, they're just random guitars, lol.

Love ya all!

Court

If I start now....

So I decided, its time to whip myself into shape. I've said this about a trillion times before....but I really want to. Why you might ask? For my own sanity. I hate being careful when I smile cause of this double chin, haha...or looking down and having a big ball hanging off my stomach. The only time I wanna be fat is when Im pregnant. Oh, sorry....Someone in particular doesnt like to think your fat when your pregnant...so the only time I want to be....this size...again is when Im pregnant. Anyways, sorry I couldnt make this longer, but Im going to do push-ups......Or not. Maybe just listen to my music, haha.

ttyl,
Court

ever feel.......?

Ever feel like your losing someone very close to you?
Ever feel like you did something to let everone down, but you dont even know what it is?
Ever feel like you are all alone, with no one around?

For the last month and a bit, these have been my feelings almost all the time. As much as I've been happier since yc, I'm still not happy.

I guess its time...

My family is leaving my church. We are still remaining in the army, just not at the particular church. Now, it may not seem like that big of a deal, but...my family has been in this church for 35 years. And nearly every one of those years, at least one of my family members were involved in at least one thing. There is not a year of my life where I haven't been at the church more than once a week. I'm always there at least 2 or 3 days, not including sunday. But there have been circumstances that have made it difficult to attend. I realized it was time when every time I entered the building, I would be filled with fear, or anger, or maybe a bit of both. I am extremely upset about leaving, but at this point I know that south meadows is the best solution. I need a church that I'm going to get spiritually fed, and because of these circumstances I haven't been fed at glenmore. This is probably one of the hardest, and scariest decisions I have made. I did have the choice to remain at glenmore, but I thought it would be best for my relationship with Jesus to leave. I hesitated posting this for nearly 2 weeks. Im not sure, maybe Im afraid to actually admit that we're leaving, because if I say it, it has to be real, or something like that. I realize that sounds just plain silly, but yeah. So this is my farewell post to glenmore temple. I will miss it so.

Court

Thanksgiving weekend

So for thanksgiving weekend, I went to Cranbrook to spend the weekend with my cousins and Aunt and Uncle. It was really fun. We've been there twice before for thanksgiving, but this was the first time either of my brothers came. My oldest brother, Chad, came and brought his friend John. It was probably the most time I've spent with him in like...2 years. But yeah, it was really awesome. On saturday, we went to the cranbrook mall. And as much as I make fun of the mall, because its so darn small...it was really fun. I went with my Aunt, my mom and my sister. And my sister and I ditched my mom as soon as we got there. Haha. We spent most of our time in Zellars, but we went to a few other stores. Zellars was really fun though. We played with the Halloween costumes, and trust me, when my sister and I get going, you dont want to be around. I ran around a corner, put a wig on, and jumped back out and made a really loud noise, to make her laugh, and she wasn't there anymore, so Im walking around with this wig trying to find her, and this like...40 year old lady was standing there, and she was like..."she went the other way" and she was laughing so hard. We were gonna get Costumes and wear them around the mall...but we didnt really want to spend money just to make fools of ourselves, we can do that for free, haha. The Saturday night we had our dinner, and I think it was the most I've laughed since I got home from camp this summer. Once you get my Uncle, my brother and my cousin Caitlin going, theres no turning back, it was hilarious. The sunday we went to "the church of rock and roll" as they call it. It was really good. then we went to fort Steele, which is a historical park thing. Then we just hung out for the rest of the weekend. it was pretty awesome. here are some pics, I'll try and get some more, but yeah. Let me explain these ones though. Theres one, and you can't really tell who it is, its the picture I accidentally took on my phone of my self, it was in Zellars when I was looking for my sister and my camera turned on so I pulled it out, and it took this really weird, yet funny picture. And the other one is my sister with a halloween bag on her head, also in Zellars.

Love ya'll

Court

Blogger Beta?

So this is the new blogger, blogger beta. I'm still trying to figure it all out so bare with me.

My apologies

I was thinking about my previous post, and I realize, it was a little bit crude. I am very sorry if I offended anybody. And just to clarify, I don't often have conversations like that...I guess it was...a special night, if that makes sense? However, I am sixteen, so I am sorry to say that I do have conversations like that on occasion, haha. But yeah, I'm very sorry for last nights post.

Now for something completely different, I have found a song that I want to dedicate to Xavier. It's called good-bye, and its by Audio adrenaline. The more I listen to it, it makes me think about everytime I've had to say goodbye to that little boy, and every time I will have to say goodbye to him, and it breaks my heart. So here are the Lyrics.

You'll be fine tomorrow
The sun will rise again
It's never easy to say goodbye
You know I'll always love you
You know I always will
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
My old friend (my old friend)
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
We've reached the end (we've reached the end)
I don't cry for sorrow, I cry with joy
The memories we've made can't be destroyed
You know I won't forget you You know
I never could And when I say I loved you
You know I meant for good You know I'll always love you
Goodbye

"Is Ass cream like Lubricant?" "your nuts were awesome"

Haha, we went to McDonalds tonight, my cousin Caitlin, my sister and I. And I can imagine that some pretty...umm...not very Christian like things went on in McDonalds, but first of all, none of us are married, and second...In McDonalds? Thats disgusting! Anyways, We went to get some ice cream. And Caitlin likes to talk in a texan accent, which by the way, she's very good at, but when she says ice cream, it comes out ass cream. So I was like...Whats ass cream, and my sister was like..."its like Lubricant" haha...and my sister got a sundae, which came with crushed nuts. And they left, and I ate her nuts, and she came back and I was like..."your nuts were awesome" haha. And as we were talking about...nuts...Caity sat on my feet and I was like..OOO OWE that hurts, but it came out in a really weird voice, so it sounded...sexual I guess, haha. Oh gosh...I love being a teenager. I also love being a teenager with Caity and Leash. Anyways, I should get going.

Court

Pictures

so heres some pics from yc, enjoy!

Mosh like theres no tomorrow

And thats exactly what we did this weekend, kind of. We had youth Councils at camp, it was pretty awesome. It was really good to Actually be happy again! At least for the weekend, haha. I got to spend some time with Xavier, and with Raeleen, which made me extremely happy. Yesterday, Raeleen and I were saying good bye, and my mom was like "ok, I'm gonna slowly inch my way over to the door, and by the time I get there, you're gonna be done saying good bye" so she got to the door and we started a new Conversation, haha. And then we both were totally avoiding saying good-bye, and Rae looked over at my mom only to see her taking pictures of us, haha. But yeah, the weekend was awesome. I really got in touch with God again, and it was amazing. Saturday night, I was having a really hard time with some stuff thats going on in Calgary, and so I was crying before the session, then I went into the session and was still crying on and off, but then...they finished the message, and they had some worship, and I was totally worshiping God and Praying and everything, and I laid down, and then I felt Simone lay down beside me with her feet in my face, haha, which meant that my feet were in her face as well. And then, she came and laid like...with our heads together, and we held hands and worshipped God together, and she looked at me, and she had tears streaming down her face, and she was like "he's here, he's in this room. Can you feel him?" meaning God, and it made me cry even more cause for the longest time she's struggled with feeling the holy spirit, and then at music camp she felt him for the first time, and this time as well. And as soon as she said that I got the feeling that God was in the room. And then my legs like, started like...slightly shaking, and it was so amazing, because I knew God was there, and I knew there was a reason. It was so amazing. Anyways, thats it for now, I'll try to post pics when I get them.

ttyl,
Court

Weekend...and Pickles

MMk....so I was telling you all about my good weekend, well after that post I started talking to Simone and we were crying, but its all good. Then...Sunday...I was having the crappiest day...so I opened the Jar of Pickles that Grandma Fern (Raeleens mom) made for me. And they were amazing. I'm on my second or 3rd bowl now...and like...there almost gone, and it makes me want to cry. So I thought I'd take a picture of some....so here it is.

And Also, I got pictures from Raw egg and Chocolate pudding night, so here some of them.

So far so good (mostly)

So this weekend, I have smiled and laughed more than I have since I've been home I think. Last night (friday) we went to the great white north tour...and did some Moshing and praising God....and it was just awesome. The just to add the excitement, we got lost for almost an hour...which I guess was my fault, being that I was the one driving. But I guess thats what I get when my sister is my navigator (just cause Navigator wasn't there), and anyone wh0 knows my sister well knows that...she can get lost in her own room. So yeah, like 12:30 I got home, after driving the other 4 people off. Then today..my mom woke me up at 9:30...and I was so angry, haha....but I had a hair appt. with Ange, so that made it a bit better. And plus, I was having really bad mood swings, mostly with my mom...haha...I guess thats what happens when your a girl. But I felt bad, cause I barely talked at all during my hair Appt. (sorry Ange). Then I came home...after shopping and crap with my mom, and slept for an hour and a half, then got up, and went to youth group...Raw egg and Chocolate pudding night....HECK YES. It was freaking amazing. Got all messy and gross....its awesome. But I should get going.

Bye!

What happens when you give a 2-year-old toilet paper?

This is exactly what happens, he takes it and flushes it down the toilet in one big ball......Oh Xaiver....I love him so!! I miss him so darn much.

Salvation

So, I had to do devotions for Jr. Band and I just finished, and I thought I'd share it with you. So here it is...


Definition of Salvation - a source, cause, or means of being saved or protected from harm, risk

Job 13:16 16This will be my salvation, that the godless shall not come before him.

I was watching a movie at school about Martin Luther. In this movie, Martin Luther said a quote that really stuck out to me. The quote was “Salvation can exist outside the church, but not outside the lord” and it really made me think. First of all, I started by thinking, is the statement true? Then I came to the conclusion that it is true. Think about it, Church is a tool, not a necessity. If someone has a personal relationship with God, and is whole heartily pursuing that relationship, but has been hurt by the church, or can’t make to church very often for some reason, they still have Salvation. You can’t just have Salvation in church, you have to live it, and breathe it. It has to be real, not just a church thing; it has to exist outside the church.

However, a church can have no salvation, if the members in the church have no Salvation personally. If a church is full of members who don’t have that personal relationship, Salvation doesn’t exist in the church or in the lord. If people are going to church to make themselves feel better about there life, chances are, they don’t have true salvation.

If people are just in church because they’ve been raised in church, they’ve been dragged along to church their whole life, that doesn’t give them salvation right off the bat. They have to have that relationship with God; otherwise, their salvation doesn’t exist at all.

Yeah, I decided, I can never just get a typical cold. It always ends up being a sinus infection, a lung infection, Bronchitis or Pneumonia. I just found out today that I have a sinus infection. GOSH! It sucks.

Crystal light Fiasco

Alright, so at camp this summer, I tried dying my hair with Crystal light cause I couldnt find Kool-aid. Here are some pics of the results....

Courtney

Tickle Tickle

Alright, so Some of you know this story, but to be perfectly honest, its one of the funniest stories ever. So, Xavier went into La senza one time with someone. I guess I should tell you, he likes to tickle whatever bare skin he can find on people. Well, there was a girl wearing a mini skirt in La senza. So he went up, reached up and said "Tickle tickle". That is just one of those stories that you have to remember for his wedding. Now everytime I go into La senza I think of that. Seriously, that kids freaking hilarious. I think he was with his Uncle, how embarrassing. I thought you might enjoy that.

Court

More pictures

<---Crystal light fiasco

UGH

Yeah, so this week just sucked. As you can probably tell from the last post. You know, I realized when I was at camp, that I was truly happy, for the entire 2 months I was at camp, it was the first time in like...2 or 3 years that I was truly happy for a long period of time. And its not because nothing went wrong at camp, a lot of things did, camp things and home things, but they still didnt stop me from being happy. Now that Im home, Yeah I smile, I laugh, but Im not 100% happy. I hate it. I've found at school, almost I ever do is Complain, talk about camp, or just not talk at all. And at home, I watch TV, I drive, I lock myself in the office and listen to my music on the comp and at like...9:30 I go into my room, Im pretty much always by myself. And I always find myself thinking about if this week would have gone any better if I was with Rae, Marty and Xavier. And I feel bad, because I love my family, I really do...but we all have weird relationships with each other, and I miss the relationship I had with Rae, and yeah, as much as we still have that relationship, and we will for a very long time, she's pretty busy, running the camp and all, and I have school and homework, and pretty soon church stuff. I want to make sure I dont lose the relationship I have with her, when I start getting bussier (sp?). Sorry, I think all my posts have been complaints, about missing camp. Im really sorry.

School sucks

I woke up this morning, and realized that I have absolutely no motivation to get out of bed, get in the shower, and go to school (after I get dressed of course). I can't figure out why. I dread waking up in the morning, not because its well...waking up, but because I know if I wake up, it means I have to go to school. This summer, I had a million reasons to get my butt out of bed. Now I feel like the only reason I have is because if I dont, I'll get in trouble. I dont get to sleep in on fridays anymore, Im in 2 fricking grade 10 courses, and Im in grade 11. Im a fricking idiot, I cant even pass grade 10 science. All the grade 10s are like, idiots, I swear they do to many drugs and dont even know what 2+2 is. Its frustrating, I cant wait to get out of my grade 10 classes, not because I dont like them, because the grade 10s are so freaking weird and annoying. I have no friends in any classes, and I've tried, OHH have I tried. I spent $125 freaking dollars yesterday on a winter Gym strip, and School pictures, my dad said he'll pay me back though. The only good day of the week was monday, and that was only till I left camp. After that (around 1:30 or 2) it was a crappy day.

Anyways, I have to go...to school...yay (hear my enthusiasm?)
Courtney

This ones for...

Hey Ya'll

This post is dedicated to Xavier and his amazing mommy, Rae. I miss them both so much. That boy is my pride and Joy. My brother asked me today if I was happy to see my friends, and I figured I had to answer truthfully, so I said no not really, and he asked me if I got to see Xavier if I'd have a different reaction, and my answer to that one was...HECK YES. I miss going for walks with Xavier, going to see the Cows, and going on the swings, and down the slide, and I miss waking up to a 2-year-old coming into my room wanting to watch a movie, or play with me, and I miss being in the shower and hearing this little knock, and when Im done in the shower and changed, opening the door only to see him standing there waiting for me to be done.

Now for what I miss about Rae. Sorry if this makes no sense, I can almost guarantee Im gonna start crying, so bare with me. We never really hung out until teen camp, and that makes me angry with myself, because I never really got to know you very well, until 3 weeks before the end of camp, then I spend every evening with you. I miss our late night Girly talks, but I definitely wont go into details on those, hey Rae? I miss random food parties we'd have, when we'd basically base an entire night on food. Aww...Sour Cream and Onion chips, Old dutch baby. And Orange Jones, and cant forget the amazing Smarties Xplosions. Hanging upside down on the couch eating smarties Xplosions, Oh how I miss those days. And all the jokes we cracked about Uncle willis, that he didnt even clue into. How I miss you, and Pineapples....Love you!

I think what I miss the most about it, was being part of a family that appreciated me for who I am, and didnt care when I made a mistake, or anything. Being Part of a family that I felt 100% comfortable with, I dont even get that with my family sometimes. I miss waking up and walking into the kitchen or the living room and have Raeleen Smile at me. I miss trying to find ways to scam my parents into letting me stay forever. I miss Swimming, even though we only went twice. Rae, I never told you this, but I honestly think that you are one of my best friends, and your like my sister. I miss you, and Uncle Willis, and Xavier. I also miss your mom, and Marty's Family...more than anything. Monday night was awesome, just being there with a family I barely knew, but feeling so comfortable. One of these days, we will make the Marshmallow Fly off, I have faith that we will. I should be finishing though, This is basically the hi light of my summer, is getting to spend time with the family. I miss all the staff too, but yeah.

Love ya'll
Court

10 reasons I want to go back

1. In a constant bad mood
2. Always wanting to cry
3. Constantly having family arguments
4. Constantly wanting to take the Van to camp
5. Everywhere I go, I'm reminded of camp, and Rae, and Xavier, and Marty
6. Walking into a room and having people tell me they get the feeling Im not happy to be home.
7. Not being able to tell those people that I am happy to be home
8. Feeling like Im only home for a weekend, but knowing Im not going back tomorrow.
9. Secluding myself
10. Snapping at my family for no reason, other than the fact that I hate every part of being home.


I just want to go back. Rae, if you read this...I miss you soo much, thanks for an amazing summer, I'll be back next year.

You will make gains in any project you undertake in bed

This is a jones cap I got, minus the in bed part, but you have to add in bed to the end of the fortune, its so funny. Raeleen got one that said "hide away for a few days...in bed" I laughed so hard, haha. There are so many funny ones. Where did the time go, I keep thinking Im going back to camp in a couple days, like Im just home for the weekend. Yesterday, my parents told me to call if I was gonna be out late, and I had the car, and I was sooo tempted to drive to camp...but then I figured...probably not the best idea. I went and bought the Jessica Simpson CD yesterday, and then it was 2 for 25, so I got the nick Lachey CD too, and I listen to them when I miss Raeleen, because we listened to those CDs everytime we went into town, and we'd always talk about how hot Nick Lachey is, haha. Oh I miss our girly times. Boy do I ever. I had a Virgin Margarita yesterday, and I felt soo bad, because I told Raeleen We'd get Virgin Margaritas before I left and we didnt get a chance. Oh well, when I come back to visit we'll get some, k Rae?

Anyways, I better go. Im gonna go listen to Jessica Simpson.

Court

PS...the pic, is from the Teen Formal, its Xavier and me

Things I'll miss

~I woke up this morning, without a 2 year old coming in and talking to me.
~I woke up this morning, and there was construction behind my house, that never happened at camp.
~I'm gonna shower today, and not have little knocks on the door every couple minutes.
~ Its gonna take me 15 minutes to walk to 7-11 instead of 15 seconds to get to the Canteen, and at the canteen, I could stay in there for hours talking to Rae.
~ Watching full house with Xavier and Raeleen.
~ Teasing Marty about anything I could think of.
~ Cuddling with Xavier while he's going to sleep.
~ Watching Bob the builder and the backyardigans with Xavier asking "whats that?" "Wheres Bob?".
~ Rae and I having our girly moments, when were just so darn giddy, and everyone thinks were crazy.
~ Trying to think of ways I can hide from my parents.
~ Camp church
~ Talking about the latest celeberty gossip.
~ Listening to Jessica Simpson going into town
~ Pool noodle fights
~ Breaking baby's floaty things (haha, Rae and Plunger know all about it)
~ Beverly Hills 90210
~ Driving into town and hearing "TOW (Cow), MIGHTY MACHINE," or just screaming because he wants to watch a DVD.

there are so many things, I cant post them all. Sorry guys!

Camps Over...So sad

Alright so I woke up this morning, and I realized, everyones leaving. However, somehow I convinced my mom to let me stay with the Matermans till Monday, so thats frickin awesome. Im not too sure when Im starting school, hopefully never, but we all know that wont happen. I think Im gonna do this Job again next year, hopefully by then I'll have another baby to watch, Right Raeleen???? Im not looking forward to Monday, I know for sure, that I'll cry. Xaviers been acting strange the last couple days, and I think we realized why today....he knew the staff were leaving. Today, he was just acting really off, and really sad, and with the staff, even the staff he screamed at all summer, he talked to them, and let one of them giv him a kiss, and asked one to sit with him. Im worried about monday when I leave, I left the house yesterday, to go SWIMMING, and he was kicking and screaming apparently. Anyways, BYE!

I will miss him soo

I must admit, I went to camp for a boy. His Name is William. He makes me happy, whenever Im sad, he makes me happy, he always makes me laugh. He likes to help me clean, and do Laundry, and he likes to watch Chick flicks with me, and he's willing to watch Beverly Hills 90210 with me, which takes a real man, he usually falls asleep during it though. He gets mad when other people give me a hug, and he's a real mommas boy. I just cant believe how good this summer has been, this summer I've spend with him. On my days off, I spend time with him and his mom, and we cuddle lots, and he likes to break things, a lot of things. He's such a boy, he loves bugs, and he loves tractors, and in case you didnt guess, he's 2. William Robert Martin Xavier Materman. We all call him Xavier though. Did I scare anyone????

I will miss him soo

Tootsie Wootsie

Oh gosh, camp is so much fun, its the best time ever. Everyones sick, of what else do you expect? Xavier (the boy Im watching) is sooo cute. He learnes stuff really quickly though, we learned this weekened. We gave him some Toilet paper, and he made a massive clump, and put it in the toilet and flushed it, and we had to turn the water off and Skittles had to pick all the toilet paper out. And then, he took a Bob the Builder toy and flushed it down the toilet in the canteen. K, but I cant do this much longer cause this comp sucks and its Slow and its Dial-up, so I should go. Love ya'll!

One Last Post

Alright, so todays the day I leave, so I thought I'd leave you all with one last post. I dont really have too much to say, my dogs pretty sick though, we think he had a stroke wednesday night, and so he's really not doing well...Its pretty sad. But other than that everythings great. I baby-sat yesterday, and yeah.

I'm just gonna post some Pictures, some are of Julia, the girl I baby-sat, some are me, some are from camp...just Random pictures cause I got a bunch on CD yesterday, so yeah.

Here ya go!

Love ya!!!
Court

Another Poem...ish

Alright, so I havent posted a Poem lately, mainly because I havent written any lately. And then this morning, I woke up, after 4 hours of sleep, only to find out that in the 4 hours I was asleep, my Dog (the older one, he's 11) had to go the Vet because he couldnt walk very well. And even now, his breathing patterns are all over the place. Sometimes it looks like he's not breathing because there are such long spaces between each breath, and other times it looks like he's hyperventelating. So I sat down at the Piano, and I started to play blessed be your name, and then I started playing other chords and stuff, and this started coming out words and all, so its a song, but yeah....and I think it might have been Gods way of telling me to calm down. So yeah, I did make it up, technically, but God was close by the whole time



When, I see your face,
I wonder why you care so much

When I hear your voice,
I wonder why you love me

But then, I pray not my will but thine
And then, I pray not my will but thine

When I feel your arms around me,
I wonder how you can love me

When I feel your love surround me
I wonder how it can be unconditional

But then, I pray not my will but thine
And then, I pray not my will but thine

And Now I feel your love Surround me
Why are you here?

And Now I hear your voice around me
Why do you love me love me love me?

And Im crying out to you
Asking your forgiveness

And now, I pray not my will but thine
But now, I pray not my will but thine


~Court~

Whos the King of the Jungle? Whos the King of the Sea?

If you were raised in Sunday school, or taught sunday school you might know where my name came from. And if not...it goes like this


Whos the king of the Jungle? OO OO

Whos the king of the sea? bobble bobble bobble

whos the kind of the universe and whos the king of me?

His name is J e s u s And I'll stop there, as I dont remember the rest of it, haha.

Anyways, the point of this, is because, well...I just got "the king of the sea" thats right folks, I got myself a fishy. His name is howard, and its just a cheap like...3 dollar fish, but I love him, and apparently, so does my dog. Everytime I take the bowl somewhere, the dog follows, UH OH. Oh well. Howard is coming to camp with me...YAY. Thats really why I got it. It cost 20 dollars for the fish, the bowl, the net, the food and everything else, so it really isnt that bad. I think I might end up calling him Howard the Coward though, he keeps running (or swimming, I guess) everytime I look at him almost, haha. I managed to sneak a picture though, it isnt very good, but its a picture. So thats it for today!

Court

Hey

Hey guys

Alright so, Im frustrated with people, but thats ok, Hopefully 2 months at camp will help me with that. I was at Jr. Youth group last night (as a leader), it's mostly asian kids, but its really fun. The pictures are of my little buddy, Frank. He's always right by me whenever Im there, haha, its actually quite funny. While I was there, well, afterwards, my parents were in a meeting, so I was there for an hour after, and I was laying down on the bench in our Lobby, and I started playing with the phone cord and the phone fell off and hit me in the nose, which isnt good when you got surgery 6 months before, on your nose. haha, not fun, it still hurts sooo bad, but what can you do? I should go though.

Oh yeah, I may or may not of helped simone get a boyfriend she really wanted!

Court

"this is telus long distance, you have a collect call from "Chad, we need your help Bram"...

Oh dear me, My brother makes me laugh. I just answered the phone, and thats what I heard. I dont know what it was about, because well...Bram answered the phone, haha...it made my day.

Alirght, so my weekend was awesome. I didnt get a chance to hang with Sarah, but thats alright, I got to spend time with my dad. We rode the Roller coaster, and it was freaking awesome! I hurt my neck on it though, and my arms hurt this morning, I have no idea what happened to them, but w/e. We shopped a lot, and we looked around Edmonton. We were driving through old strathcona, and there were these 2 guys getting into it, and they were sooo close to starting a fight, I was so disapointed though, cause they didnt fight.

I get to go to camp next week! And Im gone for the summer, HECK YES. I'll take pictures and try and post them stampede weekend while I'm home. But I should go.

ttyl,
Court

YAY

So, Im in Edmonton with my dad. My mom had some....thing at someones house in edmonton this weekend, so my dad and I decided to come and spend some time together. So far, we've done west Ed, thats pretty much it, we went to the cheap theatre there, and saw Benchwarmers, HILARIOUS! I think I get to see Sarah tomorrow, YAY. Sorry to all ya'll who live in edmonton, I wanted to see like, everyone, but I wanted to spend time with my dad, and Sarah and I started making these plans for a while, so yeah...haha.

This picture is my new shoelaces that I got at Parable in Red deer, I was so excited, cause well...Their pink, and thats a big deal for me, a lot of people can back me up on that, I've never been really into pink till this year, but I only like little bits of pink at a time, haha. Oh yeah, and they have Crosses, YAY. Im happy today, lol. But I should go

ttyl
Court

WFSC

WFSC stands for Watch For Slow Children, which is a bit of an insider, but quite hilarious. I picked up Simone tonight, and we just drove around, went to Timmy ho's (Tim Hortons) and then to petland, and then we went to Arby's...to pee, haha. Then we just drove, we were driving and stuff for probably 4 hours, and then we were gonna go for dinner, but her mom invited me in for dinner, so I went and had Chicken with them. MMM...it was quite good. But when we were going into the Arby's Parking lot, there was a sign that said "Slow Watch for Children" and I read it wrong, and well...you get it now Im sure. Then when we were at petland we were gonna get a fish, but decided not to. But when I got home I was like..HMM...I should get a fishy for camp, so We were trying to come up with a name for it, a name that reminded me of Simone, because Im gonna miss her sooo much while Im gone, and she she was like...WFSC! But we decided against it...Simone, we'll share the fishy ok? Still trying to come up with a name, but Im gonna go visit Laura at Petcetra tomorrow and maybe look at fishies. YAY. Tomorrow is so busy though, Im going out with Joey before she goes back to edmonton, and Im hopefully going out with Ashlee from my church, and I have to shop for camp stuff, Maybe fishy will be part of my camp shopping. Who knows! Anyways, thats my story.

Love ya'll
Court

HMM

UNFAITHFUL (Rihanna)

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I heard this song on the radio yesterday and I came home and found it on the internet, and I havent really stopped listening to it. I was thinking, It kinda relates to our relationship with God. Everytime we're doing stuff God doesnt like, or approve of, its almost like you're killing him again and again, and he knows your doing it, and you know he knows, but he doesnt want to tell you to stop, and he won't leave you. He's leaving the decision up to you. I may be way off in this, but its what I get when I look at it from a Christian point of View.

Court

If the Link doesnt work, heres the Lyrics.

Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong really loves my company Hes more than a man and this is more than love the reason that this guy is blue the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair preparing for another day A kiss up on my cheek He's here reluctantly as if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A liar didn't have to tell Because we both know where I'm about to go and we know it very well cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer His trust I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer) No no no no Yeah yeah yeah

UGH!

K, so can I get some prayer on wednesday? I have my science Final, and I need to get a really good mark, which to be perfectly honest, isnt likely, I havent passed a single test in science yet, and Im so confused, and Im almost in tears because I think Im gonna have to take grade 10 Science again next year, which I guess isnt a terrible thing, but..UGH...I just need to be calm I guess...clear my mind...but its just so hard! I just wish that it didnt have to be so hard! Oh well. I have to go. ttyl


Court

Yeah...just so ya'll know, this face makes me smile , even when I feel crappy, like right now for instance. Jenn, you have a beautiful baby, and your so lucky!

This is just for Jenn!

K, Jenn...I took these pictures just for you!

I went to See Ange today, and told her I wanted it a little shorter, kind of a trim, and then I told her I trusted her, and this is how I left. I love it though. It feels soooo weird! Jenn, I thought you especially would enjoy these pics. It made me miss you more though!!!

ttyl,
Court

What an exciting week

K, sooo...This week was pretty good. Nothing really out of the ordinary, until it got to yesterday, oh and Camp last weekend too. So, Yesterday, I got home from school, I hung out for a bit, had dinner and everything, and I signed onto msn and Simone was on, so I asked if she wanted to go out, and I'd pick her up. So I said I'd pick her up at 6:30. so at 6:20, I attempted to leave my house, when I started the car, I started driving away, and I looked over at my brother only to see him waving me over. It turns out, I skided (sp?) past his car, and took some paint off of it. He wasnt mad or anything, he didnt really care. My parents weren't home, so I left, Picked Simone up like...5 or 10 minutes late, and we went to the mall...and one of her friends works at a car wash, so we went to see him and he gave us a free car wash. So we then came to my house, and I believe my words were "Umm...Mom, Dad, I washed the Car, for free....And I scratched it" I was sooo scared, I was scared I was gonna lose my driving privlages, but they said to learn from it, and that its only a car, and at least I didnt get hurt. I was so relieved, but I still felt soooo bad, when we were at the car wash I was hoping it would take the paint off, but it didnt, it made it more visible. But w/e. We figure it can come off with a little work. So I figure I'll try and figure out how to take Paint off, and do it myself, since its my fault, does anyone have any suggestions? Anyways, the Pictures attached are some of Camp, and some of yc, YAY!

Court.

Dedicated to the Clusters

Well, my dear clusters, your all gone, your in heaven now. I will miss you dearly, every part of you, even the BATS...EWW. You've brought many good memories, and I love you.

Thanks for the memories!

SMILE

Alright, so a few people said I should smile...so here. Just for you! Horrible picture I know, but there ya go.

SoI've been in a really good mood all day, dont really know why, maybe its because I have 2 days of school left. Im pretty well done everything, except exams and stuff. And they were only 42 minute classes today because we had an awards ceremony, and a down syndrom kid graduated, which is weird only because our school is only grade 10 and 11 this year, but it was really cute, cause he was so excited and everyone was cheering and stuff, it was really cool. I almost cried, haha, Im a softy when it comes to kids and menatally handicapped kids people.

I so get to go back to camp this weekend, on sunday, because my sisters going so I get to go with her. Anyways, Im gonna go

Love you all!
Court